Yesterday went fine except that I was cold all day -- chilled, really -- and had a major headache. Couldn't tell if it was from lack of sleep or lack of coffee. Either way, I was in pain. Too much pain to talk on the phone, actually. I woke up this morning with only slight residual pain. And gave in to the urge for coffee...:)
Let me backtrack for a moment. Call me a quitter but I'm just not ready, may never be ready, to give up coffee. Really, why should I? I only drink about a cup a day, two on a particularly groggy day.
I woke up from a dream that made me sort-of angry. Details are boring, really, so I'll just describe the gist. A large group of people were being unfairly critical of me. At first, I listened to their brazen comments to glean some constructive elements. Eventually, I realized they were just being mean. I didn't run away and hide so I could cry. I didn't get falsely angry and storm out, never to return. I listened, but then I stood up to defend myself. Calmly and logically, I poked holes in their claims. But nobody was interested in logic, or reaching a compromise. They just wanted a whipping girl to absorb all their anger and discontentment with their own lives.
As I lay in bed analyzing my dream, I realized this was an important moment. I had learned something about myself and the way I interact with others. I had learned to have confidence in myself even when others seek to beat me down. This will come in handy as I continue on my writing path.
Then I started thinking about the raw challenge. My head throbbing, I decided I would have coffee today, after all. Maybe again tomorrow. Hell, I might never give it up. Clearly, the 30-day challenge is great for people wanting (and needing) to make drastic changes in their lifestyle. Overweight or suffering from debilitating disease, these folks benefit from a crash course in detoxification. But someone like me, who really has no weight to lose and is generally healthy? I already eat raw all day -- why give up my one cooked meal? Or coffee? What will I gain from this experience, really?
No answers yet, just questions. And coffee. Definitely coffee.